I am not sure why, but my count down likes to round down the months we have left until the wedding (e.g if there was 3 months and 3 weeks left, it would say, 3 months and just give the days)
It is completely incorrect though.
We have two months exactly- Today is March 8th and we get married May 8th.
61 days.
As slowly as I feel like it goes most of the time, and as antsy as I am for it to be here already, it really is coming very quickly.
Planning-wise, I am not ready at all. In fact, I woke up rather stressed this morning because two major things I thought were taken care of are giving me a tough time and I have had to approach the situation from several angles. I am still waiting for it to work out, but I know it will.
Other than the actual plans for the actual wedding and reception, emotionally and spiritually, and physically even, I am ready for it.
I want it to be tomorrow. I want to marry KR for eternity, and I am ready for it.
Most people try to guess the emotions I am experiencing, what with a wedding coming up in two months, and the most common prediction I hear is "nervous" or something related to being afraid.
I am not afraid.
I am completely the opposite.
KR and I work so well as a team and I cannot even make myself feel hesitant.
Believe me, I've tried.
Sometimes I think there must be something wrong; something I am overlooking.
"Maybe I am just caught up in it all and not really thinking about what's going to happen. Maybe that's why I haven't had any worries or fears."
Anyone who knows me, knows that I am "apprehensive" (the word my Grandma makes me use rather than scared) about a many, many things. Huge, fast roller coasters; slimy looking foods; creepy crawly bugs. The biggest thing, by far though, has always been change.
So when I am looking at the biggest change in my life and haven't been stressing or "apprehensive", I wonder what's wrong.
Recently, I have literally stopped and forced myself to really think about the enormity of this decision and change and how serious it is.
And all I do is end up smiling and I even get giddy.
I am not "apprehensive" at all. I am so confident in this decision and I have never been happier or more excited about something. Ever.
61 days. . . .
It is completely incorrect though.
We have two months exactly- Today is March 8th and we get married May 8th.
61 days.
As slowly as I feel like it goes most of the time, and as antsy as I am for it to be here already, it really is coming very quickly.
Planning-wise, I am not ready at all. In fact, I woke up rather stressed this morning because two major things I thought were taken care of are giving me a tough time and I have had to approach the situation from several angles. I am still waiting for it to work out, but I know it will.
Other than the actual plans for the actual wedding and reception, emotionally and spiritually, and physically even, I am ready for it.
I want it to be tomorrow. I want to marry KR for eternity, and I am ready for it.
Most people try to guess the emotions I am experiencing, what with a wedding coming up in two months, and the most common prediction I hear is "nervous" or something related to being afraid.I am not afraid.
I am completely the opposite.
KR and I work so well as a team and I cannot even make myself feel hesitant.
Believe me, I've tried.
Sometimes I think there must be something wrong; something I am overlooking.
"Maybe I am just caught up in it all and not really thinking about what's going to happen. Maybe that's why I haven't had any worries or fears."
Anyone who knows me, knows that I am "apprehensive" (the word my Grandma makes me use rather than scared) about a many, many things. Huge, fast roller coasters; slimy looking foods; creepy crawly bugs. The biggest thing, by far though, has always been change.
So when I am looking at the biggest change in my life and haven't been stressing or "apprehensive", I wonder what's wrong.
Recently, I have literally stopped and forced myself to really think about the enormity of this decision and change and how serious it is.
And all I do is end up smiling and I even get giddy.
I am not "apprehensive" at all. I am so confident in this decision and I have never been happier or more excited about something. Ever.
61 days. . . .
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